Wishful thinking?

After an absurd blog post about my current condition; I seem to be in a state of limbo today. I woke up this morning with a strange sensation of feeling! Yes. I felt my wonky smile actually MOVE!! My eye magically blinked. I think. Maybe. Yep. Certainly. I'm sure it did. As I'm sure it is now. I think. That really is the absurdity that is this palsy business. This morning my face woke up rested and feeling semi-functional. I, of course, half a sleep, was wondering if I was still dreaming or my face was making real progress. But how could it.....it's only been a few days. Here is the crux of the matter - As happy and as grateful as I would be to have a recovery period already starting; I feel apprehensive. In all my reading and research on this strange malady, no where does it say that a recovery can come so quickly. And, of course, being a hypochondriac I can't help but feel a little more scared at the prospect. In my mind, if I am truly on the up swing of this thing - is it really Bell's Palsy? Could it be something else? Almost every resource and doctor I have talked to has warned me that it can take weeks, if not,months to fully recover. I blame the palsy. *my new mantra...it makes me smile.....at least half of me smile* But maybe my neurosis is short-lived; as I write this I feel a familiar dryness to my eye and a weakness to my face. It is amazing what your body will consider 'normal' when it stays constant. Don't get me wrong....I would love to be back to my normal strangeness and daily routine. But knowing I have Bell's Palsy and understanding its treatment and recovery time is much more comforting than experiencing a miraculous recovery and having the feeling of uncertainty that knowing it might not be a palsy.....it could be something else. On the subject of diagnosis....... It is scary to me that much of the medical community is clueless about Bell's Palsy. I mean, with our advanced technology and understanding, we are able to help people walk again, make remarkable prosthetic limbs, cause remission of cancers, operate on the human brain, perform transplants of organs and even whole faces! And yet, we are tortured by colds, allergies and the palsy. My doctor tells me that they *THINK* Bell's palsy is caused by a virus and that is why they treat you with antivirals but they don't actually know that for sure. REALLY!??? No one has been able to culture the virus or even identify it. JEEZUS. We can perform open heart surgery but we can't get a culture? CAN I GET A CULTURE *insert a sermon Hallelujah* In other words they are BLINDLY treating the SUSPECTED virus they I might NOT have. Awesome. I feel better already. And people wonder why I don't like to go to the doctors and why people seek alternative therapies. I'm NOT a crazy anti-medical establishment person. I understand that there is so much about the human body that remains a mystery. And I will always follow the appropriate course of medical action. But you have to wonder sometimes. If my doctor can't tell me what is the cause or what I should expect; how am I supposed to have confidence in their diagnosis? I blame the palsy.