Mourning

Another light has gone in my life - and once again the world shines a little less -

My Grandfather died today. And I wish I had called him last night. I wish I had said something more. I wish I had been closer. I wish I could have said Goodbye. I wish I could have been there. I wish.....

But you knew, did you? You knew I loved you.

And I know you are with my Dad, and Nana. And I know you will be with me always.

He was a great man; a man that saw only what could be done, and not what could not. He found strength in times of sadness, and lightness in times of darkness. He commanded respect, and offered kindness in return. His love was unconditional and loyalty was ever faithful.

His life was the stuff of legends, but to me he was Papa. And he always will be.

I hope I made you proud Papa.

You will always be my Papa.

I love you.

The Cooldown Effect

Maybe I was a little hasty earlier.

I was mad. Maybe a little bitter. Yeah, I was pissed.

I suppose I shouldn't have been so blunt, and general with my wrath.

Sometimes I just can't help but be aggravated by silly people making stupid arguements based on things they really don't understand. To make the matter worse they passed judgement on my beliefs after knowing me for far too long - Bottom line they should have know better.

I apologize for the nasty post earlier but I won't take it down.

Bitter, maybe. Hurt, absolutely.

I'm Speechless - Well, not really....

It amazes me that on such a historic day; some bastard has to come along a ruin it for me - well, maybe not ruin - just piss me off.

I have mulling over this post for awhile this morning - and in the end I have decided that I'm going to distill it; to be a little mysterious of its source, but make a brief and angry rant. Sit tight folks. This bitch is pissed.

I'm happy about our President Elect. I feel as though I have a little more trust in the election process, and a little more faith in my fellow countrymen and women. But you know....that's just my opinion. That's how *I* feel. If you don't feel the same way about the election, or the process, or the President elect; Fine. You are entitled to your opinion and I respect your for it. I pass NO judgment.

HOWEVER --

When you pass judgment over my opinion -- you better have a good reason and an even better argument -- because playing the "support the troops" card is a *bad* idea.

~ Here it goes.....

You may not like my politics but I never asked you to. You may think I'm a idealistic liberal - I'm not - but you are entitled to believe what you want. You may be disappointed and angry at the results of our election - now you know how I felt the last two elections - but I'm not responsible for the turn of events - a lot of people voted.

But if you think for one minute that by my choice of candidate I'm less of a military wife, or that I *do not* support our men and women in uniform - you need to back the Fuck up.

How dare you play that card with me Sunshine! Its so easy for you to sit back and pass judgment on me - when you know nothing about my life. Its so easy for non-military persons to say that by voting one way or another we are LESS patriotic. Guess what jackass - The next time my husband or my friend's husbands are down range _ I'll remember YOU who is less patriotic. The next time my husband has to go take care of remains coming up from down range - I'll remind you who the FUCK is patriotic.

Who are you to point the finger at me? I don't see you losing time with your spouse, or family member due to military service. I don't see you living thousands of miles away from loved ones because of military service? Don't send me *support the Troops* emails if you don't really understand what the fuck it means! Don't pretend to support anything to justify your ignorance, and use it as a way to pass judgment on others.

Argue your point by all means - if it means that much to you - voice your opinions and tell me your thoughts. Think before you speak, and make your point based on issues that you understand and you have some experience of.

But to base your attack on me on *MY* patriotism. Really? Stupid, really stupid.

I dare you to play the military card again...what the fuck would you know about it.

Vote & Be Heard

~ "Government is too big and too important to be left to the politicians."~

Election Day. Thank God.

I wonder how many people got up today and thought; today we elect the next leader of our country. Was that the first thing that crossed your mind this morning? Probably not.

I feel a little disconnected from the election media frenzy, and last minute politicking of desperate presidential campaigns. I'm unable to sit and watch the numbers rolling in state by state. But really isn't it all slightly biased right to the bitter end? FOX will still continue to take pot shots at any Democratic candidate, and their platforms; even after the polling stations close. CNN will still try and look liberal and unbiased while parading a line of 'experts' on screen - which all happen to be Democratic, Liberal or at least non-republican-ish.

Everyone loves a show, right?

Yet, I wonder how many American started their day with hopeful anticipation; energized by the thought of change, lasing change.

Yeah, me neither.

However, no matter however disillusioned or jaded I have become; I remember why I vote, and that I *have* the ability to vote. As a woman, and as a woman of a minority background, I recognize how lucky I am to not only vote, but bitch about the process too. I can sit here in front of my computer screen and ramble on about the media circus that is our election. I have the right to openly express my disgust at political figures, and disagree their ridiculous statements. I am fortunate to have the freedoms that I do. I respect those who gave me those rights, and those who continue to fight to preserve them.

I just hope that when everyone wakes up to the Election Day morning takes a minute to remember where we were at the turn of century, and where we can be in the next century. This voting process has its problems, but for better or worse it is the one we have, and the one that will bring us our next leader - let's make the right choice.